Christmas...to painful to bear??

Christmas is supposed to be "the happiest time of the year".

Often the really "happy" folks overlook the rest. But are they really happy inside? Many of those folks also have hurts and heartaches as well.

During this season we should remember that their are many of us find it hard to be a part of anything...our friends don't seem to have time, work isn't always the place to be and sometimes even our own families make us uncomfortable. I should know.

Have to juggle birth families, foster families, adoptive families and in-laws(2 sets) AND our "Bros and Hoes" group is very overwhelming. Some days I don't care to speak to my family members and some day I want to connect with them all. This does not mean I don't love and care for them...cuz I do. From time to time tho, each of us makes mistakes, feels we are shunned or simply need time apart.

For those of you who don't know...Bros and Hoes is a small group of "outsiders" (no family for Christmas, or not getting along with their family or some reason or another, etc.). We meet to celebrate special occasions together...with the stigma. We accept anyone...so if you feel alone this Christmas just let us know.

Not Ready To Make Nice - DIXIE CHICKS

This is one of my favourite songs right now. I recently went to see the movie - Shut up and Sing. It was so good!

At times, I can really feel along with the words in this song:

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell andI don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

Advice to live by...

There's some mighty fine advice in these words.

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. Do not keep this message!

It's a Hard Life!

Here is part of a song that I feel kinda describes how I feel...

This is a tricky situation
I've only got myself to blame
It's just a simple fact of life
It can happen to any one
You win - you lose
It's a chance you have to take
It's over and I'm falling apart
It's a hard life, To love and live
It's a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another
I try and mend the broken pieces
I try to fight back the tears
They say it's just a state of mind
But it happens to everyone
How it hurts - deep inside
When your cut down to size
This life is tough - on your own
Yes it's a hard life
In a world that's filled with sorrow
There are people searching...
It's a long hard fight
But I'll always live for tomorrow
I'll look back at myself and say I did it
Yes I did it!

(some words taken from Freddie Mercury)

Moving on...

So, here it is a new start. I figured I would move on to something, hopefully a little more personal or atleast let you know how I'm feeling, with this blog. I know a few of you were actually reading the first blog but I decided to move on to this new blogspot! Thanks for joining me!!